today is better than any day that's come before

Everywhere I go, I see sad people. Either the people are sad about how shitty their lives are according to them, or they're happy but not truly happy. There's something missing in most of these people and its kind of sad seeing it knowing that as happy as they seem, when no one's looking they're hurting inside. Well, let me just tell you that 95% of the time, I'm completely happy. Don't get me wrong, there's certainly always room for improvement and the possibility of being completely happier. I'd be a lot happier if I had a million dollars and a couple of blowjobs (or a million blowjobs and a couple of dollars, either way I'd be stoked) but considering what I do have, I think life is pretty fucking great.

I just don't see the point in being sad I guess. Don't get me wrong, stuff gets me bummed out. For example a week before Christmas this girl I really liked and was dating broke up with me. I'd been in a shitty mood for a few days (since I'm almost always happy or angry, every few months I get a weird menstrual-type couple of days where I'm all pissy) and she couldn't deal I guess and ended it. To explain how much I liked this girl let me just state that she was the love of my life. She was the love of my life after the previous love of my life and before the next love of my life. After that I felt real bad for awhile. I moped a lot. I tried to win her back. It still sucks seeing her looking beautiful in class almost every day and wishing I was still with her, at least to some degree, while at the same time slowly realizing more and more of her flaws that I conviently ignored because I dug her for a long time. And yet no matter what happens, even if I love and lose or never love at all...life is great. How can life not be great?

Okay, okay, I'm sure if I lost my entire family or close friends in some horrible accident, or ended up a quadrapalegic or something, life would suck and I wouldn't be too pumped all the time. But knock on wood (which I just did) that won't happen. So what does that leave me to be bummed about? Relationships? No, not gonna do it. They come and go. I'm pretty happy with this girl I'm persuing now, a real cutie. Eventually that'll end and I'll be bummed (or not, depending on how it ends and who ends it) and then I'll move on. I'm almost a high school graduate and then I'll be free to do whatever I want. I'm free to do whatever I want now, I just have the minor obligation of appearing in school five days a week. Yeah, I'll have college in a few months but that's a whole different ballgame. I have great friends, great family, great taste in everything (take that humility!) and a fucking easy life.

So you know what? If you're out there feeling bummed...just knock it off. Just go "hey, this isn't worth it" and stop (exceptions include death and the like, sorry for your loss). You don't need to be feeling shitty, you need to be going to a diner with your friends because you have nothing better to do, or making out with a hot girl/guy/sandwich. Get stoked on life, alright?

It rules.